Inside me is Broken into Millions.

It kills me deeper each time I think about you. I bled twice as much knowing that it'll be over too soon.

I held my head up high to not let these tiny droplets touched the ground. I'm trying three times tougher to be strong, to let it passed by me. But, I'm just wondering, what is there lacking of this beautiful soul that have came back to bring light to this promising soul. You know what, I don't think I'm that important now. I don't think you're important to me anymore. I am so not afraid to lose you, I swear. But I would love to laugh at you when You're all by yourself. Your sick ass jokes is not hilarious at all. Your repeated stories bores the whole universe. What are you , it's like though I don't know you anymore. Well baby, if you can do all that bullshits to me, I can do it 10 times better than you do. If that is what you want from me for loving you, Baby, Bring it On. I ain't got nothing to lose. I always have that in mind, to kill you upside down. But I controlled myself; Why did I control because the purpose is to make myself happy. Satisfied with the things that I did sincerely to you. I have always told you that I don't ask much from You. Knowing that You cheated on me, Was the most heartbreaking. Of all the arguments we had, well this, You went too Far. Just too fucking far to let anyone knows about this. Why, because I'm ashamed. Why, I thought we were doing Great but you have another Bitch behind that Pathetic face. I didn't expect you to do that kind of thing. Why, for the fact that You Convinced me that the bitch is nowhere near you, I trusted you with all my heart. I gave it all to you. Why, You're my boyfriend and what's the use of not Trusting. When I first found out, I was trembling all over. I lost direction and my mind wasn't straight. The pain was unbearable and I knew I was hurt yet Again. But the pain was killing me even Deeper when I heard what You said to the Bitch. Baby, I was this close to let you go. To let you fuck the bitch, to let you lick her boobs, to let you hold her. I was Fucking disgusted. Why, she's already a SHE-MALE and I wondered what was so good about getting to know her that You have to Lie to me in sucha big Cirlce. My love for you soon faded and it was all gone. Honestly, I wanted to leave you. Why, It was all in a big mess and I wonder what other bullshits will come from you. Am I stronger to go through it yet Again? But, I turned that down. Why, Allah asked me to stay. Because he Loves me more than You do and he knows that I am strong. Allah have seen me went through the most difficult obstacle that he have set for me. He asked me to stay because that thing You did, wasn't the most difficult thing, but it was Too Much. If you're gonna said that Your Life is Fucked Up. Baby, You are fucking your Own Life. You are the One that wants your Life to be fucked up. And that is the Only reason why everything to you was Fucked up. I am not pleased with every single sentence you build up for me, because those were just excuses. Another repeated sentences that I have to bare. Honestly, I can't believe that my own love is a Fool. Well I'm sorry because you are like a pathetic tape recorder which doesn't know how to move on and said somthing sincere and fresh. All I get was: March 17 2010,it was the first time i saw you,you were reading less then zero.i never seen so perfect,i never think that i have to have you or i die. Baby, You know that TOO WELL that this wasn't YOUR FIRST TIME saying it to SOMEONE. Hello, I am Shaza Andrea and I Know everything from A-Z. From Kissing to Fucking. Seriously, I am Not your typical women with Only Big Boobs and Butts or even Oversized, that You want to fool. I went to school and I've done my O Levels. I Learnt alot in Life and You have ALOT to learn. Grow up lahh Boy, favour sia.You know it too well, that I am Never gonna be easy this time with you. I will make you Feel this piece of shit yourself and I don't care how much emoshits you throw at me because those were LAME tricks you played on your previous bitches. Baby, please use your brains. I am very Observant and I don't just predict. C'mon dude, everyone knows our story and I am not the One being Looked down. But, You are. What will others think about you Now. They all cared most about me, because I've given my best to you and I mean it. If you care most about having alot of friends especially bitches, then You let me go. Why, because I am intolerent of my boyfriend to have bestfriends or whatnot of the opposing sex. Unless I know You through them and I know how they Look like, then it fine. Another reason, of course a girl wants her boyfriend to only just focus on her. Which girl would not feel sad if the boyfriend have other girlies to entertain. Well, all that, to me is Not a part of a Relationship. I'm not saying that you cannot meet or talk with your friends, but please, how many times must I emphasize on Limits. You got so mad when I'm close with my guy classmate or even worst, a senior from the same CCA. Your ego ruled your emotions, you see. I ONLY have babygirls because the bestfriend you ever had is when they are the same sex as you. Why, you'll understand One another. Simple explanation, you can't even fulfill that. Enough of all this piece of crap because it's an immature thing.On one note, To all those that is reading this: If you are in Love or dating Someone, please observe their behaviour careful. Yes, you are in Love but shits like this Happened. If the person dating you/ you are in love, and If they were to Use similar SweetTalkerMotherFucker sentences to you all over and over again, or even worst, used them to Someone else, if You are Not strong, please leave all them because who knows you might get the same thing as I do. But, if you are strong, I respect you and Go on. However, don't be too easy yeah. Think about your Own feelings first, then You can attack the person with a Bazuka, by all means. To Najib Bin Mohd Kamel, I will never be easy on you starting yesterday. And I swear I am ashamed of your misdeeds and I don't know where to hide my face. Everyone now knows our story and I don't know how to manage you. I just hope that this is the Last time I get from you. I hate what you have done to me and making people to know about this. I swear I have nothing to lose but I am not the person who gave up easily and so We will Move on. Yes, I'll be rude to you because there's no More Ms Nice. The feeling of love, faded and You'll have to bring me back to you. When talking about Trust, you are Reading Less than Zero and I don't know what the Fuck it means. Well, you are way down too low to have my trust. Baby, you have to work this out on your own and I am Not the right person to Lead. But You Are;

Irritating person, Fuck, Ruining everything, Dissappointment.