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Senile; It gets Tougher.

When things was Once beautiful, it shattered like a broken glass. Piece by piece, it broke down into more pieces. Trying to get back up this time was the toughest. Yet, I am no strong then other souls around me. Like an angel they shine towards me, I felt weak. Ashamed of what was left of me, I look down on self, trying to find my face. Seeing it was one, Hearing it was two, Feeling it was the hardest. I was deeply in Love with you, with your strength. I couldn't do it or went on another further like you. Just to see your strength to get back up, I was thrilled. You mean the whole world to me, How I wish I was that strong like You so that I can move on and see what's there in for me. Never could I expect the worst for You, I could just listen and feel the pain that we both have to go through. Yes, it felt Unfair. But, this Life means Nothing if there wasn't any challenges that everyone has to go through. For the fact that you went through it again, I felt sorry for You. I never could have imagined how painful it would it be to see Our Love do it to Us. Damn, it was very hurtful I must say. I know, for a reason, we just have to give in and take what was done or said. Yes, I am Never stronger than You are. I salute you for your Strength, the patience that You have put up, I was awaken from this Misery that I'm in because You were stronger to defeat everything.

I was in Love with you. You mean everything to me and I was delighted to have you by my side. I was mesmerized by your beauty, Never could I imagined a day with your presence. I was happy, everyone could see it. I was shy to introduced you to anyone because I was afraid that you are too beautiful to them. Baby, you broke me into millions of tears, my ears were bleeding to hear it coming out from them. I was confused, I thought what we had was special. I never knew that You would do a thing that shameful towards me. Because you're in much denial, I was lost. Lost to know my Love for You. I don't know if it's really ongoing or not, for the fact that I was just too Lost and ashamed of them. I love you, that was sure. But to date, I don't know how to say it to You. I couldn't help it, you used to be the love of the class, Boy, wake up. Things happened for a reason, we get it. When I see you cry right infront of me, I trembled down because I never knew it hurts you this bad. You were the man, and I could see how much You Love her, You value Her. Boy, it kills me deeper to see you frowning today. How I wish I'd knew what was on your mind. I know you have something to tell me, b ut only because I am a girl, You were ashamed to let it out. Boy, You have advised me that much to save my own Love story. This is the time for me to help you out, the least I could do is to listen to your heart. You know it too well, that keeping kills you more, Boy, we're in this together. I feel You.

Dear Love;

Jibby Tribanni, Najib Kamel, Jib's Jarvis, Jib's Appleton, but most importantly, The One I choose to Love for the longest of years that Allah allows. I want to see myself smile again, I want to see myself happy again, I want to see myself in your eyes again and I want to see myself being there No matter what again. I want to stop crying and I want to stop all the mess. We're doing fine, but not as Fair as it can be. I want the Us that we both were. But first, we both have to change ourselves.Don't rush and take it easy for we have dealed with the most careless thing. I wouldn't want to repeat it again, for which it was STILL hard for me to gain Your Trust. Which part of it that you don't get it right, I am a girl and I have trusted you so Much before and You have to meet my Needs now to give me time to Gain you back. C'mon, do I need to counterback at you so you'll Feel how much it kills me? Well, baby, that wouldn't save our misdeeds. I'm sick and tired of reminding you for You have no one to nag at you at home, that Was why You were so Manje and couldn't take what I need to say to Save our ass off.

Glam`Sweat`Sugar`Sex`Spice.